well it all started when my arse of a mother kicked me out.
im moving into my dads now thank fuck.
arguments every night and i cant take it.
id bn smoking hash every night
but then i decided to stop because it was fucking up my mind.
i was starting to hear shit i ddnt want to hear.
and my ana was getting worse.
then i stopped the hash
and things looked up abit(:
i thought i was getting better moving into my dads
had my bestfriend there for me(rosie)
then jamie killed himself.
he was like a brother to me.
ive been crying for days
he wrote me a song for my birthday last month.
i thought he was just being sweet.
turns out it was a goodbye note.
i didnt relise it till it was too late.
and im fucking kicking myself for it.
nothing in my life is going right.
so i eventually decided to get out my bed and go uptown to see my friends
might make me feel better i thought
i went to beths party
and twixx asked me out again
that made me smile
but then i took hash again.
and because of the alcohol mixed with it
i went into toxic shock.
and ruined everything for everyone.
they told me i could of died.
im just so glad i got my hash taken off me tbh
£30s worth ae it but oh well.
but tht was the only thing i could turn too.
and ever since jamie died i eat.
but now im not eating again.
and people are noticing.
and i cant deal with my mother the dick heads at school exams and everyone else trying to fucking kill themselves these days.
im once again at breaking point.

thats all ive got to say atm:\